A New Beginning
12 Dec 2009 1 Comment
This is interesting.
I never would have thought that I’d create a blog to write about… well, about myself and I guess just whatever comes to my mind. You could say that this was just on a whim. I honestly don’t even know. But I guess this is just the beginning of something totally new!
Well to start off, let’s just say that these past few weeks have been: Different. Difficult. Lonely. But I think it was good for me. Sounds weird ehh? But I think that everything that has happened is for the best. When I think back on these past 2 years and 2 months, I realize that I lived my life thinking that what I had in mind was what God wanted for me. I figured, “Hey, I’m a Christian, I’m a good person, I’m living my life for God, well I guess it’s okay for me to cruise along now.” But man, was I wrong. Cold water slapped me in my face!! Last month, it’s was like everything that I had known, believed in, and trusted just crumbled away. All my selfish attachments and desires were crushed. You know why? I wanted to live my life for me. But God had a different plan for me. :] And you know what? That’s totally okay. Even though my life has changed so much and I’ve felt so much sadness and pain, I’ve become stronger. I refuse to just give up. I’m going to follow Him.
And lately, I’ve been hearing this a lot from people, in different renditions, (especially with me applying to colleges and what-not) :
“Everything happens if God wants it to happen. If you were meant to do something, to go somewhere, or to be someone, that’s what’s going to happen if that’s what God has intended for you. It’s just that YOU don’t know what’s going to happen.”
These words have encouraged me so much, especially for me to stay planted on my feet so that I can walk forward with my head held high. I was always an independent person, but after these past few weeks, I’ve become more confident in myself solely as a woman of God. Yes, I long for so many things from the past. I miss the life that I had felt so comfortable with. I regret so much. But the past is the past, I can’t rewind the hands of time. I can only look towards the future with my sights set high.
All I need is Him. And I am happy! :]
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“Being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect. It means you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.”
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“The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident.”
- Psalm 27: 1, 3
